Rivaled Emotion

A poem for better or worse

Knowing my love for you is the only thing I can be certain of at all times,

Knowing God bestowed your warm embrace and majestic glow,

Being that a young man with mental health flares and episodic moments,

I choose to love you harder, I choose to trust God more, I choose to love me harder,

I choose to be more, do more, love… more,

I found myself in a moment of emptiness but God soon filled my emptiness,

He gave me a reminder for you,

You are an Angel on earth and nothing you can do, say, think can change that,

Your heart is pure, words are soft, and skin as radiant as the very first sunrise,

I smile when I think of you, I cry when I think of you, I love when I think of you,

My love beats like a New Orleans Jazz band’s drummer in a honky tonk bar dead set on Bourbon’s center,

My past was rugged but out future is exfoliating,

Moments are revitalized when I think of you,

Slowly replacing my nightmares with your wayward smile, your eyes,

I love your eyes, they tell me more than what your words say at times,

I don’t regret anything, all of these moments good, bad, and neutral will lead to the deepest love,

The type of love we prayed for, the love God wants us to have and to hold,

The type of love that we can bless others with our origin story,

The love that fuels legacy, the love that praises and honors God,

God made you special, God made you unique,

He gave you gifts that help those around you,

You are an amazing woman, lover, confidante, supporter, cheerleader, friend, sister, daughter, and fighter,

Many times I wish I had the words to say I love you but in methods of my actions,

I choose to love you as this new story, new season unfolds,

Hard conversations, soft cuddles, bold bourbon, calm slumber,

I choose you, I choose love, I choose us,

I love you, you are beautiful,

God loves you, God sees all you do,

God knows your heart, he knows that you are in a season of self reflection,

Let his image shine upon you,

You are a Goddess, you are a queen,

You are my heaven on earth,

I love you.

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